- Cage Me On Your Shelf -

I’ll never learn to be just me first by myself 

— Give Me Up —

Just let me be, move on with your life.

The power of your human greed

Unbearable to my very own nature.

Such different worlds

 Bound to eventually collide.

Once in love and realized that love was nothing

I fell in love with my own beliefs

Everything it ever was will never be

Finish me off

Its over now

—You win – I lose —

JL

- I AM YOUR LOVER -

Suffering was the only thing made me feel I was alive

Thought that’s just how much it costs to survive in this world

Why Did You Have To Be So Cruel?

Tears, wasted years, painful memories, damaged goods.

—–<—<@

It always comes back

Must be something so strong

I just can’t let you go

Friends don’t understand

They try to comprehend

All they do is listen to you

Makes no sense they have no clue

For it is us who both know the truth

I always believed in you

How your passions got the best of you

You over looked me, I never turned my back on you

Betrayed by my own lover

Didn’t deserve all of this mess

How can I find another?

You always wanted something more

Why everytime our pain walked through the door?

Its too damn emotional for us to be together

Drained completely from every thought

Everyday brings in bad weather

Coldest of blood

All that is left of me is sickened love

I cry everyday a sad tune indeed

When disappointment comes my way I bleed

Knowing that the time has pushed us apart

Knowing that there could no longer be another chance

Made me suffer through all this pain

Trying to let it all flow, trying to let it all go

I just don’t know anymore

I just don’t know

- Close the wounds – Hide the scars -

(((((echoes through my head)))))

>> NAKED DUCK <<

WALKS DOWN THE ROAD

CAR! CAR! CAR!

RUNS HER OVER

SPLAT ALL OVER

SO DISTURBED INDEED

(((((voices ringing come and save her)))))

- Close the wounds – Hide the scars -

JL

(((JEALOUSY)))

Tell her that I love you and that I was your lover

She don’t even know you like I know you so well

- but if he come back again -

- tell him, wait right here for me -

- or try again tomorrow –

- i’m gonna kick tomorrow –

Tell her what a fool you were

You Made Me Die

You Killed My Spirit

I Hate You Forever For This

Remember This…Forever 

…… Forever for you …..

Killed you

Yet you live

Pains me

Yet you give

All anger

Within you

For the love of god

Why did you do it?

Spare me for you

I can’t understand

And now that we are both older

Wisdom speaks of truth

Watch your body deteriorate

And the wrinkles on your face shows the pain

How I live with this in sorrow

Because I cannot live with denying the truth

The bond we have has no need to be spoken

 You are my blood and it is a part of me

Wither away with your ways

It pains me that I have killed you

Denying my suffering for what I put you through

I was born this way

It is all what I can explain

Just want to know that you will accept me

In time it will work out

Just give me your belief

Hold on a bit more

Don’t go away just yet

…..Rid Me Of The Pain….

JL

<<- STRUGGLING WITHOUT YOU - >>

-jane says-

You had me several years ago when I was quite naive

You said we would make such a pretty pair and that you would never leave…

- jane says I ain’t never been in love, I don’t know what it is -

Treating me like a whore, made me feel like a whore, you got your way, someday you’ll pay for our horrid price of love. Thinking that you owned me, wanted to possess me, your over obsessions with loving me were just too much.

- she only knows when someone wants her -

SHE GETS MAD AND SHE STARTS TO CRY

SHE TAKES A SWING AND SHE CAN’T HIT

SHE DON’T MEAN NO HARM

SHE JUST DON’T KNOW

WHAT ELSE TO DO ABOUT IT

<< LIAR! LIAR! LIAR! >>

 Sing a song all day long, la, la, la, la

SUFFERING

Suffering

SuFfErInG

Come back lover

 I know you’ll be back in time

All you ever needed was me

Hopefully the day will come

You will know the truth in time

You were my song I needed

My love was your strength

A weakness you always wanted

<<<I NEVER FELT LIKE SUCH A FOOL>>>

Never told me

I could always see it in your eyes

All the love we shared

Disappeared into the skies

Fly high above the clouds

Never wanted to hurt you

What we had was too special

Had to let it go

Regrets I have many…

<<< Time To Turn The Page, Turn The Pages >>>

Peeling your potatoes

Bending over whenever you want me

Whore me

You repulse me

What hell

Open the window

Fresh air

Shitty place

All this dust

Throw your computer down the stairs

Who cares if they hear us?

They barbeque there brains out

With there bimmers and hummers

Never liked this hell of a place

Caged me up that’s all you did

“Turn it around baby – spend more time with me”

JL

WHAT HAS BECOME, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE

He kills me softly, burns my passions away as I cry and I scream

- i need you, i can only be myself with you –

- turn it around baby, spend more time with me -

- he treats me like a ragdoll-

No matter what I do he owns me and I am slave to him forever in my heart, my soul…

END THE STORY THE END THE END THE END

BEGIN IT AGAIN OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN

Smokes pot all day long

Trying to erase the memories

Cloudy judgement

Make it fade away

Blowing candles out

Smell burned ashes

FLY, FLY, FLY, FAR AWAY FOREVER…

——————–

REPEAT REPEAT REPEAT REPEAT 

———————

Roleplay all day

Save me from my thoughts

Sanity is my tragedy

—————–

When she pops full blast

God damn you asshole!

Such a liar

Such a whore

A match made in heaven

Dear god, dear god, dear god

POP POP POP

Ouch those thorns

Bloody Mess, bloody hell

Naughty man, barf all over this floor

Fuck, it’s all such crap!

JL

 {{{{Nobody Else But You}}}}

Alone once again alone

Never wanting to be alone

Love me, love me, love me…

{{{{Bloody Storms}}}}

Save me from my wretched past

Help me survive my journeys path

Too weak am I to live this world alone

{{{{Click, Click, Clang, Clang}}}}

{{{{Chicka, Chicka, Boom, Boom}}}}

Dear god, why did you put me here?

It hasn’t come out for months

Oh sweet smells of lovely living

{{{{AS LONG AS YOUR ALIVE AND WELL}}}}

Just didn’t feel right

How he fed me those tarts and steaks everyday

All day long just a bunch of fun

Never enjoyed your choice of songs

Too much, too much, too much

Noisy hell

Too much of this, too much of that

Send me to your microwave

Fetch you your water at 65 degree temperature

What hell, what hell

“I need you and I can only be myself with you”

I really want to, I think I love you, I know I need you, What to do with you, Once I have you, Quite obsessed with you, How to get me through, Spent so many nights, Wondered madly about you, Want to have you, I just don’t know how…

Catch me all by myself

I’m all messy – My hair ain’t pretty

What you hear

What you see

What you are

{{{{IT IS WHAT I LOVE}}}}

JL

!!!PUNISH ME ** Slave To You…FOREVER ** PUNISH ME!!!

Shattered storms, endless mourning, painful yearning of your touch.

Pain.

Pain from my lover who had left me I slowly die inside.

Without love, I am no one.

Hurt. Pain. Tears. Broken.

Rain falls from the sky

I cry so hard.

So hard yet no one notices.

Scream so loud that no one can hear me.

I want lover to hear me.

I want lover to taste my tears, devour my soul.

Life carries on.

I simply cannot live such a life without my lover by my side.

— TILL I BLEED —

AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN

JL

 ”You gave away the things you loved and one of them was me…”

I love you forever…

In Delia’s castle lay her soft milky skin.

Where is your daddy?

Dear god, when no one wants you

Where is there to go?

Gone astray

So far, far, far away…

———————–

Broken all the rules

What else is left to do?

Halo on my head

Life ain’t so sweet 

How he brings me pain & pleasure … all the time, all the time

Take me away from this life … Far, far, far away

JL

- LOVER -

Keep reminding me that he cut out my heart like a paper doll

Tell me once again how he set me up just to see me fall

I fell in love, I fell in love, I fell in love

Love, love, love, love, blah, blah, blah, la, te, da

While you go out and play …

I sit here wondering …

- THINKING -

Wish I could do that to …

Be just like you…

JL

—- YOU TRY TO TAKE THE BEST OF ME —-

How I Tried, Tried So Hard

(((GO AWAY)))

Rape Me

Break me in and get into my mind

Never trusting me, everything to you was a lie

Why you treat me badly what did I do wrong?

When all I did was try to love you over and over

Play your song on and on

Sing me a sad song as you rape my heart, my life, my mind

Accusing me of cheating when it was you who made me lie

I didn’t mean to do it but you never let me prove it

Never cared, never wanted to be there so screw it

Throw it all away, whatever we had forget it

Forgotten in just seconds

Your false accusations

I just couldn’t take this

The way that you raped me, you raped us

Violated my privacy how could you live with yourself

When you tell me I’m the one to suffer you should be in jail

Go to hell. Go to hell I never wanted to tell

This is what you get for meddling so well

Raped my mind with your manipulative mind

Controlled my heart and drowned me with your lies

I never meant to hurt you I only wanted to love you

We will never go back to how we were before

I’m forever angry at the things you do

Why do you have this side to you?

Why can’t I forgive the shit you put me through?

How can someone be you?

Raped me when I spoke the truth

I’ll never go back to you

JL