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 Next Best Thing?

I knew the time had come

I was so afraid to lose you

Knew you had to grow

Never did I want to leave you

Against my inner will

Heart would not let go

Had to do it

Used all the power I could to get through it

This painful time

Again and again and again

Couldn’t take the pain anymore

So I had to go

Leaving you

The greatest sorrow I had

Replacing you

Trying to numb the pain of loss

Must be so strong

When I can’t let you go

Had me there

Didn’t want to release me

Not just yet

But I had to come out

Your world suffocated mine

To it’s death

I stare into the air

Whatever it is

See the vision

There I am

Alone

Cold

Naked

Took my clothes away

Took my mind away

Took my everything

And just when I thought I was beginning to bring it all back

The castle was destroyed

Now you left me

I have been homeless for months

All alone

Nothing to do

But think shattered thoughts

How you laugh and mock my mind

But I only speak the truth

Your sounds crash into me

A cry for help

Coward you always were

You envyed what I always had

And how you got there to taste it

You just stole it all away

Confuse me you fool

I no longer love you anymore

So I thought

But the realization came to mind

After you threw me out in the trash

I was left there to die

Rain fell pouring on my body for days, for months

And no one came to pick me up

Instead I was thrown into a bigger pile of bloody mess

And was given a light

I saw your world before my very eyes

So vivid I had to watch it

I had to preview what was to come

And once I saw it

How sickening the film

Your new loves await

Brings me sorrow

But that is what you always wanted

Put back the page go ahead

Only you and I will ever know what happened between us

Sugar rolls turn sour apples

World turned upside down

All I’ve known of you

Was just a face of a man

Nothing more

I will forget it all happened

Like to you did the second the walls started to crumble

Should have known your cold cold heart

Accusing me of being the devil

I never believed your absurdities

And your army of men

Fuck them all

The hell with whatever this was

All you did was give me pain

In the end it was all yours for the taken

So go ahead

You can have it

Take it

Have your way with it like you always do

Angry fool

Afer I gambled all or nothing

My reward was more sweet misery

As if I hadn’t had enough

And the bad love just piled on and on and on

Leave me alone to die

Soon I will live again

Soon I will be reborn

JL