Silence Speaks A Thousand Words ->

 

I’ll bow down and pray to every woman I see…

 

Polish, sleek, what you want me to be

Who cares?

Where is the beauty when we are raw

Naked

REAL

I could never live it

Would drive me mad

To be your little puppet girl

Treat me like a dog, like a slave

How he laughs

The hunt, the chase and the kill

I nearly died

Somehow I managed to come back to life

What you did to me

How you treated me

Misdiagnosed with your own perceptions

Fantasy girl, fantasy world

Twisted me

Reality is such a hard time

And what a struggle

You had to do it

Just force it out of me

I wasn’t ready

Tried to birth me prematurely

Because your selfish greed had the best of you

You always had this weakness

The pattern of your life

What smells good is green

And the money gets you the girl

Not me

Never did I want to be your trophy, your token

Makes sense now

Spinning me upside down all this time

Feeding off of my weak mind

Would I do the same?

Many a lover have yet to see

I couldn’t tell

Back to life

Reality

Round and round we go

Spinning tea cup

Again and again and again

Rollar coaster ride of hell

Time to get off

We’ve both had our fun

I kept telling you to stop the ride

I wanted to get off

Little boy

Spinning the tea cups round and round

And so you asked for it

I threw it all up

All over you

All over the place

All over the whole god damn world

And I’m not done yet

Going to throw up everywhere I go

Until I get this bloody disgust out of my system

The best way I can

The surest way I know how

Sad but its true

I chose to be

I chose the path

Build my own foundation

Alone and without you

Something to prove

But not for you

Never was it for you

I did it all for me

How I knew my visions

Aware of it now I understand it

Wish we could have shared this power

Because I knew you all along

Wish I could have taped you

When it all was happening

You couldnt see it

What I saw

What I felt

What I learned

I am taking it along with me on my next journey

Like what did to me

Enjoy your next girl

I wish you all the best dear lover

Bloody kisses

Tears of joy

Rid you from my life

Forever…

 

JL